So, I drew the 6 of wands, King of Cups and Page of Swords the other day. This is how the day's energy played out.
Directions given were ignored by the person responsible for carryiing out a task. This pushed emotional buttons with me over boundaries and since, it's happened many times, I recognized a pattern that needed to be addressed. Feeling really angry (again) I asked someone to go the through the material with me to see what could or should, be salvaged. My sword dilemna was worrying whether I should reprimand someone and ask it to be redone, incurring more charges on the project, or let it go, suffer in silence and let that boundary stretch and have the process repeat.
The king of Cups was telling me that perhaps, I had held on to emotions too tightly for too long. That by coddling someone elses' sensibilties, I was not honoring myself or the King. I tried to keep my 'eye on the prize' in the 6 and weighed the options for success.
I felt very pressured by this person to respond and to accept the material as submitted. By 2 in the morning, still awake and fuming, I accepted that my anger had a lesson.
There was another flip email asking me to justify my requests. This was clearly a situation out of control. I composed an email, had my supervisor review it for clarity and CYA, and sent it. Several passive aggressive and lenthy emails shot into my in box. I replied directly and shortly on what I wanted. After the second round, the situation appears to be resolved. For now. I thank the universe for the lessons and guidance, and realize that boundary issues, like other lessons, resurface.
So, tonight I'm hooking up with Marie to talk some more tarot and practice some spreads. More information to come.
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